Are You Am I Looking For Love And Acceptance?

Are We Ready To Find It? The Aftermath Of COVID-19!

A Prayer Addressed To You My Master …

  • In my distress I came to You. Quote:

You command me not to fear but fear I cannot escape when I see the hopelessness around me.

When my feet and belly are swollen.

When I can’t even eat.

When my bladder is overactive.

When my hair is matted.

When I itch.

When I have no one to help me at these critical moments when I am so dizzy, I can’t even walk.

When I fear to fall down at each step I take to help myself to the bathroom.

How can I not fear something dreadful is wrong with me and around me?

Even so? I REFUSE TO FEAR.

I trust; I believe You;

I believe in You;

I will not despair!

You are my Master, my Loving Shepherd.

Your banner over me, Your banner over my children, including Ahmad, Your banner over all of my concern, AND?

Your banner over Your so loved world is LOVE & PROTECTION. There shall NO EVIL truncate our well-being for one second longer than You allow its attempts to do so.

I thank You for hearing me. I thank You for answering me. You always do. I thank You for the much-needed sleep. And? I drifted into sound sleep. End of prayer.

  • This time I slept until around 10 am.
  • Got up feeling pretty decent.
  • Now? Here I am ready to post this matter aligned to Your will for me to do so with the headline of Your choice. So be it.

When? When I Do Not Know How? I Come To You …

Thursday, May 14, 2020 at 4:53 am.

Life, or what is called life goes on in these earthly grounds. You know it my Master. You know it all because You are The Cause And The Effect Of All.

  • I have nothing to worry about. I am what I am by Your design and purpose not by anything else.
  • No need to explain and defend. At the end? It is all coming to light. But in the meantime? I must live for today not worry about tomorrow.

What Shall It Be Today, My Master? …

Thursday, May 14, 2020 at 6:37 am.

Yesterday I was not able to sleep during the day despite the fact that I was falling sleep in front of the screen. But once I would go to bed I could not sleep.

  • Finally? I slept on and off from around 9 pm until around 4 am this morning. I was extremely uncomfortable on getting out of bed.
  • What to do? I asked of You.
  • You led me to fix some coffee and my bread croutons. I did. I ate. I drank my coffee.

Ready Now For Whatever You Have For Me On Today …

Thursday, May 14, 2020 at 8:00 am.

I thank You for the way I am feeling. I feel like the morning glory. It is a good laughter feeling, but! You know that I am now well aware of the transitorieness of feelings.

Instead! There Is Joy Inexplicable Surging From My Heart. Why? …

Ha! That is the inexplicably that cannot be explained. But the way You are developing the relationships in our midst? The cause for that inexplicable joy!

Enlightenment! So Much To Enlighten Us About …

Thursday, May 14, 2020 at 8:30 am.

The meaning for this heading in the date. Amazing! No kidding. The dates are the steppingstones towards the future. Meaning of this date:

  • Thursday= the 5th day of the week.
  • May=the 5th day of the month.
  • 14=twice the number 7.
  • 2020=twice the number 10
  • 8:00=8+twice the number zero.
  • Am=the beginning of the day.

What Is Your Message, My Master? …

Ha! for one thing I never done before? Here is a shock to my children, lol. I have taken my shoes off. It came to me to walk barefoot in my apartment. What?

O My Master! That Is What You Commanded Moses To Do. Why? …

The people can call me crazy, deluded, included! No matter! The only thing that matters these amazing days of my journey in Your Presence is what You call me to do.

  • “Put your shoes off your feet, for the place on which you stand is holy ground.”
  • Two instances about taking off and putting on the shoes. Quote:

Exodus 3:5  God said, Do not come near; put your shoes off your feet, for the place on which you stand is holy ground.

Exodus 12:11  And you shall eat it thus: [as fully prepared for a journey] your loins girded, your shoes on your feet, and your staff in your hand; and you shall eat it in haste. It is the Lord’s Passover.

O My Master! The 2nd Quote Is What You Quickened Me To Do A Long Time Ago …

That is the reason why my peculiar way to keep my shoes and clothes on at all times. And when I go to bed my shoes are besides my bed to quickly go on as I get up.

  • Even the way I eat a lot of times. I eat standing up. Hahaha! Haven’t got the slightest what people thinks of my peculliarities, and?
  • It has never occurred to me to change my peculiar ways for fear of what people thinks.
  • That is one fear that has never entered in my mind.
  • Guess the devil is satisfied with whatever makes me look however in the sight of people.
  • What a blessing!
  • I cringe when I think of my past ways of daily shower, priming my way to look good and fit for whatever occasion.
  • The worse? I forced my children to abide in such routine!
  • Thank goodness! You have now set me free from all my shenanings to look good!

But! Now? Take Off My Shoes. Why? …

For the place on which I stand is holy—set-apart ground. HalleluYah! I am now standing on the set-apart ground in Your Presence to recibe Your instructions for what You have planned for Ahmad and I before we were even born.

So? What Is Your Message In The Date I Started To Record This Entry? …

“O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? What joy you are to Me! The joy inexplicable bursting in your heart is My joy.

I am shedding My light on what I am doing on  the beginning of the day to start the preparations not only to survive the great tribulation but!

Mainly to overcome all difficulties concerning My plan of deliverance of My so loved world.

That is the meaning of the date and time in the numbers.

I am actually, practically, materializing My purpose for your life in conjunction with Ahmad’s life.

The Number 5: Grace and Preparation

The Number 7: Completeness and Rest

The Number Ten: Law, Testing, and Representation

The meaning of Zero is simply awesome. Zero is both closed and wide open. It means comprehensiveness, openness, wholeness, and infinity. It’s an all-inclusive number.

Could it be that the number ’10’ is when things get serious? When reality begins to sink in? When the number ten is reached it seems as if the realization that whatever is about to happen is now going to REALLY REALLY happen.”

The Beginning Of The Day …

Thursday, May 14, 2020 at 9:30 pm.

It is a new day! New cycle. New beginning. The people can call me crazy, deluded, included! No matter! The only thing that matters these amazing days of my journey in Your Presence is what You call me to do.

  • Sometimes, I feel like a nut! Sometimes I don’t! I feel like gamboling & leaping for joy as a calf released from the stall. I feel like the morning glory.
  • Good laughter feelings, but! Undependable. I am now well aware of the transitorieness of feelings that come & go like the waves of the sea.
  • Thank goodness! O my Master, You have set me free from depending on those feelings.

O My Master? Sleep Has Evaded Me This Night …

Friday, May 15, 2020 at 3:54 am.

Been up since midnight. I posted in all sites. Mess with the graphic for the next post but! It is not working out. Will redoit.

  • 4:28 am ah! Maybe sleep

Well? You Now Have All My Ducks In Place …

Friday, May 15, 2020 at 10:30 am.

Amazingly simple, yet? Must wait, but! There is that 10 for whatever is to happen it is really, really happening now, and? The number 30. What about the number 30?

  • The Number Thirty – Dedication, The Blood of Messiah

The Message Is Simple. Enlightenment. The Time Is Now …

The Time Is Now to dedicate all means available to proclaim the true meaning of The Blood of Messiah.

The Blood Of Messiah? The Stumbling Block In Our Way …

Why The Blood of Messiah has become our stumbling block? O my Master! I need an answer from You. I need for people to see You not me in all that You give me to write about.

I Need For All To Know I Am Not The One Pushing The Buttons …

Friday, May 15, 2020 at11:00 am

O but how easily we can blame each other for pushing our buttons. Such revelation is amusing to me. Why? Because of sinners I am chief! Hahaha! HalleluYah!

Now What? Somehow My Master Let Your People Know You Are The Pusher Not Me …

Friday, May 15, 2020 at 9:46 pm.

O my Master! my request is superfluous. People already know Who You are in my life. Furthermore, You are now making clear Your purpose and aim for my life.

Fact Not Delusion. A New Day For Sure To Settle The Confusion …

Saturday, May 16, 2020 at 7:10 am.

What it seems to be my delusions You are fixing to turn them into solutions. What is it that many consider me to be? Mentally ill as in my medically history.

The Truth? Though That I Was Declared Mentally Insane Since 1982, I Am Not.

Saturday, May 16, 2020 at 12:33 pm.

I talked to my heavenly Father–I still do. I will always do. I had many spiritual experiences, but no one believed that I was talking to my Father. So? They declared me insane.

10:39 pm bed hope 4 sleep.

Gifted Not Insane Is The Reality Now Revealed To Me …

Sunday, May 17, 2020 at 3:35 am.

What a delight! What a healing experience. All the sufferings of the past are now joy inexplicably full of the Father Creator’s loving pasion for His so loved world.

Conclusion? There Is Only One Solution—That Is Not My Conclusion …

Let the headlines glare the glory of mankind to find solutions for the aftermath of COVID-19. No matter.

Enlightenment In 2020. Fact: One Solution …

Swiftly, effectively, victoriously the message with that solution travels through the waves of the net! Wonder where is it going? Wonder no more! For sure, your mind and heart.

Will It Reach Its Destination …?

Sunday, May 17, 2020 at 4:10 am.

For sure as well. I do not know when. I do not know how for that is something the Almighty Creator reserves for His time and discretion, but!

I Know For Sure The Message Has Reached My Mind And Heart. A big Start! …

Free at last to let the world be! The world is now free from all my opinions and conclusions however brilliant those could be.

And That Is The Conclusion For This Post As You, My Master Are Leading Me To Do …

Sunday, May 17, 2020 at 5:21 am.

Paying no mind to how I feel, much less to what I think, I am going on. O but I feel like a calf released from the stall of my own human fears and doubts and ignorance of my Father and His ways.

Snow In My Dream …

Sunday, May 17, 2020 at 8:16 am.

Master? You sent me to sleep only to dream of beautiful snow on the ground. Brief sight. I woke up. Meaning of dream. Quote:

To see snow in your dream represents a fresh start or purification of some area of your life. A new feeling of security or a second chance. Experiencing something has come to an end. A new sense of clarity. Alternatively, snow may symbolize spiritual peace and tranquility.

Negatively, snow may reflect how harsh or cold a cleansing experience is. A very unpleasant new beginning or feeling as though you’re being punished. Emotional isolation. Feeling “out on the cold” or like you got a “cold shoulder.” A loss, a breakup, or an unpleasant ending of some kind.

  • I am not feeling good at all. Help me my master. Going back to bed.
  • All those fears are knocking at my door, but!
  • You guard my door. No fear can come in whatsoever.

Ha! In Bed Your Answer Came For My Relief …

I heard, “Get up, prepare all things to wash your hair in the kitchen sink.” Immediately You gave me the strength to obey Your command.

While washing my hair? Surprise visit from Ahmad when I was just about to colapse. Ahmad helped me to finish the job safely.

  • I realized right there and then the clear message in my snow dream.

Master? Surely, I Am Experiencing Something Has Come To An End …

Sunday, May 17, 2020 at 8:51 pm.

What that would be? Perhaps the many faces of craving for love and acceptance? I now sense a new sense of clarity. A sense of spiritual peace and tranquility never experienced before.

After giving it some thought I wrote a comment in one article discussing the psycological impact of COVID-19. Quote:

Enlightenment? COVID-19 in 2020

Has anyone considered the Almighty Creator of our beings? Yes! I, for one. lol So have others, but! I can only talk for myself. Why lol? Because, O well, believe it or not, our Creator separated me in this roof apartment of my dreams since 2017. Whatever for? To finalize His testing me face to face as it is written.

The last day of 2019? He pronounced His work within me for the benefit of His so loved world was GOOD! Wow!

What is happening now? Ha! Amazing! In 99 F summer heat in Amman, Jordan where the heat is so extreme one can hardly move plus the devastating info on COVID-19?

For me? It is a new day! New cycle. New beginning. The people can call me crazy, deluded, included! No matter! Sometimes? I feel like a nut! Sometimes I don’t! I feel like gamboling & leaping for joy as a calf released from the stall. Right now? Today? I feel like the morning glory. Why?

Enlightenment In 2020. Fact: One Solution …

Swiftly, effectively, victoriously the message with that solution travels through the waves of the net! Wonder where is it going? Wonder no more! For sure, your mind and heart.

Will It Reach Its Destination …?

Sunday, May 17, 2020 at 4:10 am.

For sure as well. I do not know when. I do not know how for that is something the Almighty Creator reserves for His time and discretion, but!

I Know For Sure The Message Has Reached My Mind And Heart. A big Start! …

Free at last to let the world be! The world is now free from all my opinions and conclusions however brilliant those could be.

And That Is The Conclusion For This Post As You, My Master Are Leading Me To Do …

Sunday, May 17, 2020 at 5:21 am.

Paying no mind to how I feel, much less to what I think, I am going on. O but I feel like a calf released from the stall of my own human fears and doubts and ignorance of my Father and His ways.

His love in my heart for all, thiaBasilia. 🙂

You Know My Master My Intentions To Keep Quiet, But!

Sunday, May 17, 2020 at 9:37 pm.

But You tell me to proclaim Your aim to save Your so loved world. So? I wrote the comment. Indeed! There is clarity in all You lead me to do.

How Clear I See It All Now? …

For years and years in my dreams I found myself walking on long roads only to wind up at a dead end. And in real life? I was a super-hero battered woman.

  • People simphatized with me. People admired and helped me and I helped people big time!
  • Still, I craved for an ilusive love I could not get a hold of.
  • I tried to buy that love. I gave it all money wise.
  • And my life? I laydown my life hoping for that ilusive love in return to no avail.

Ha! How Clear I See Now The End Of My Search …

Will try bed. Sunday, May 17, 2020 at 10:27 pm.

Monday, May 18, 2020 at 4:49 am.

Mounted on my own white horse, I was looking for love in all the wrong places in this earth as it is now. O my Master! You saw it but You let me go.

  • And You waited, waited, waited for that horse to bolt me down with no love to be found.
  • Only then You were able to lift Yourself up and have mercy on me.
  • Only then You were able to be gracious with Your love You were to hand over to me.

What Kind Of Love Is That? …

That is the everlasting only love only wothty to seek and search for. That is Your love from on high. That is Your pasionate love for Your creation including us human beings.

  • It is written through out the 66 books that comprise the library called the Bible. One quote:

Isaiah 30:18.

And therefore, the Master [earnestly] waits [expecting, looking, and longing] to be gracious to you; and therefore He lifts Himself up, that He may have mercy on you and show loving-kindness to you. For the Master is the Almighty of justice. Blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) are all those who [earnestly] wait for Him, who expect and look and long for Him [for His victory, His favor, His love, His peace, His joy, and His matchless, unbroken companionship]! [Joh 14:3, Joh 14:27; 2Co 12:9; Heb 12:2; 1Jn 3:16; Rev 3:5]

Here And There The Stories Are Told …

Rebellious ungrateful children that refuse to their parents’ upbringing. They refuse to work and blatanly remain at home muching off their parents until?

  • The parents seemingly heartless kick them out and refuse to help them any more than the help already given.
  • Those parents suffer greatly to see their children suffering for a time. But!
  • At the end? Those children turn out grateful, respectful adults, productive citizens of any country.
  • Where does the family concept comes from?
  • The truth?
  • Enlightenment!

Such Concept Ingrained In Our Beings Comes From You O Master Creator Of Our Beings …

Monday, May 18, 2020 at 6:56 am.

That is the amazing truth to set us free from our own selves. Free from all our ideas, concepts, opinions, and diversity of beliefs rampart big time around the world.

O My Master! You Are Not What We Have Made You To Be, But! …

Why have we turned out to be the way we are? Why the rebellion, the pain and suffering, the misery of living even when we cover ourselves in the luxury of laughter?

“O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? How clear you now have an answer to it all. How clear you see in your own children’s rebellion your past rebellion against Me.

Indeed! O My precious child, that is the meaning of the record of Cain and Abel. Cain’s rebellion and anger were not addressed to his parents as the children do now. Cain’s rebellion and anger were addressed to Me.

It is likewise today, but The children of today lack understanding of who they are and why they are on this earth.

The children of today only know they were born by the will of their mother and father. Thus, they blame their parents for their successes or for their failures.

Their anger or hate as well as their love are addressed to them for bringing them to this world.

In the other hand, if the children are brought up in a religious culture, they learn to worship the religious concept of Me, there you have the ostentatious show of public worship as the children become adults.

Very well, now? Should life deal to any of them a bad deal like the death of a child or the loss of their fortunes? The most ostentious of worshipers quickly abandon their worship and take things into their own hands. They discover the powers hidden in the spiritual realm to overcome such blow by the insights from that spiritual realm.

Those are the magnets who attract the multitude to heal themselves by the power of their own inner self completely ignoring even My existence.

Then we have the ones who under the same circumstances turn to Me to overcome such pain, but! They never abandon their religious ways nor their understanding of My words and My ways.

Those are the ones stuck in self-righteousness with their finger pointed to them never to themselves. They are the stench in My nostrils.

And of course, there are the numerous ones called to lead My flock. Unfortunately, the majority of them are not following Me, they are following each other.

Those are the ones out there in the world either proselything or casting out demmons or helping the widows and the orphans by their own power of understanding My written words.

Those are the ones in the saddest group of all. At the end? I will have to declare to them their iniquity or their Lawlessness.

My child, you have been a faithful member in each one of those groups in your search for love and acceptance to no avail.

But why I let you on your own for the 80 years of your existence on this earth? My reason is now clear to you.

I AM LOVE. The LOVE you been searching for is now flourishing in your heart more than ever before.

No need for long theorethical explanation to define Me. Your life in My Presence is a testimonial that I AM LOVE above all circumstances of your existence on this world. End of my Master’s words.

O My Master! By 10:36 Pm I Could Not Go Anymore Last Night …

Tuesday, May 19, 2020 at 1:36 am.

You know it. I crawled in bed. Perhaps I slept until after midnight. I got up feeling somewhat better. I checked the emails. What did I find? Encouragenment. A message from Jeff.

The subjet line? Quote:

I’ve been lying to you

Jeff Goins via n.convertkit.com

May 18, 2020, 10:44 PM (3 hours ago)

to me

Hey ThiaBasilia,

We’re friends, right? Good. I think that’s an important place to start, because friends tell each other the truth, and I want to be honest with you: I’ve been lying to you.

The truth is I’ve been lying to myself, playing a role I thought I was, only to realize there is something deeper beneath the facade I’ve shared with the world for the past ten years. …

O My Master! How Real Can You Be? A Message To Let Me Know It …

Tuesday, May 19, 2020 at 2:17 am.

You know of my lingering fears while I record such long words from Your heart of love. So? You always come through to encourage me, to remove my fears.

  • Master? It is useless to take my eyes off of You to look at the hoplesness around me. When I do, the fears clamor to arise again.

What Happened Yesterday While I Was Recording Your Words To Me? …

Tuesday, May 19, 2020 at 8:25 am.

Yesterday my body was not taking the heat at all. I felt lousy. Lost of apetite. Thirsty. Felt nauseous. Swelling legs, feet, and belly. Bugs byting me. Itching. Not able to sleep. But!

It came to me to wet myself and go on.

I did. I was able to keep wetting myself to go on until I finished recording.

That happened around 8:30 pm.

Just Then, Ahmad Stepped In With Supper To Share With Me …

By that time, I was feeling somewhat better. I was able to eat with him, but! Afterwards, I became miserable again. Unfortunately, Ahmad did not notice my discomfort. He left.

What Was Your Purpose For Such A Day, My Master? …

Tuesday, May 19, 2020 at 8:56 am.

When I got up around 2:17 am while recording my reply to Jeff, I was still suffering. My head itched. It came to me to wet my head. I did. It helped. I was able to work until around 5 am.

  • At that time, I became drowsy. I headed for bed. Slept until about 7:15 am.
  • Around 3:30 am I witnessed a strange situation. I heard children playing in the street. Voices. I went out in the roof with no light for me not to be noticed while I checked.
  • Ha! Four children having a grand time. Furniture on the sidewalk. Two adults carrying that furniture in the apartment down in my building. At 3 am? On curfew time?
  • Even more, all around me the curtains in the windows were up. Lights on but no people that I could see in the houses. How strange.
  • It’s now Tuesday, May 19, 2020 at 9:18 am.
  • Drowsy again. Heading for bed.
  • As I was getting comfortable, I had a flash of my long hair floating nicely. It had been untangled!

A Prayer Addressed To You My Master …

You command me not to fear but fear I cannot escape when I see the hopelessness around me. When my feet and belly are swollen. When I can’t even eat. When my bladder is overactive. When my hair is matted. When I itch. When I have no one to help me at these critical moments when I am so dizzy, I can’t even walk. When I fear to fall down at each step I take to help myself to the bathroom. How can I not fear something dreadful is wrong with me and around me?

Even so? I REFUSE TO FEAR. I trust; I believe You; I believe in You; I will not despair! You are my Master, my Loving Shepherd. Your banner over me, Your banner over my children, including Ahmad, Your banner over all of my concern, AND? Your banner over Your so loved world is LOVE & PROTECTION. There shall NO EVIL truncate our well-being for one second longer than You allow its attempts to do so.

I thank You for hearting me. I thank You for answering me. You always do. I thank You for the much-needed sleep. And? I drifted into sound sleep.

  • This time I slept until around 10 am.
  • Got up feeling pretty decent.

Now? Here I am ready to post this matter aligned to Your will for me to do so with the headline of Your choice. So be it.

His  love in my heart for  all. thiaBasilia.